Monday, April 30, 2012

30 Days of Submission: Day Seven

Do you accept and/or expect discipline or punishments as a part of your submission? How do you feel about it?

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Thoughts on being ignored

Here lately I have noticed a trend on FetLife. It comes up every so often with new waves of people joining in group discussions there. The trend: Ignoring as a form of punishment.

30 Days of Submission: Day Six

What do you feel are the roots of your submission? Do you think it has something to do with childhood? Is it a relationship management tool as in the practice of domestic discipline? Is it a sexual thrill or something else?

Wednesday, April 25, 2012


Just want to say...


Okay, phew, glad I got that out of my system. Lol. Today I spent the better part of the day in bed. Either asleep or reading. First thing this morning Monster declared me unfit. I was told to take my meds, lay down, and sleep as much as I could. He did the "Daddy fuss" (feeling my forehead, showing concern over a fever, getting medicine for me to take, and then kissing my forehead). It was sweet and exactly what I needed.

30 Days of Submission: Day Five

Have you been or are you in a dominant/submissive dynamic relationship or is this new to you? Have you been in more than one D/s relationship? How were they the same? How were they different? What is unique about your relationships in your mind?

30 Days of Submission: Day Four

Do you switch into a dominant role at any time? If you are in a domestic discipline relationship, are there things that you maintain control over? Are you a “switch” in BDSM terms? If not, have you ever thought about it or given thought to why it’s not for you?

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

You suck. No, you suck

Yesterday afternoon, Monster and I had a talk. Here lately with as busy as he has been, our kinky side has been put on the back burner. Like, put back and semi-forgotten.

Things are slowing down with taking care of the in-laws and hopefully we can get back to some semblance of order. Our daily life as Daddy & his girl hasn't been affected. It's the kink that's changed. Our little explorations slowed down, a lot. So we talked about it.

Monday, April 23, 2012

30 Days of Submission: Day Three

    How do you know you are submissive or have the potential to be submissive? How do you feel when you express your submission?

Formspring Question #1

I am so excited. After fighting and figuring out how to get the formspring ask me box on here, all the grrs, growls, and almost curses, it paid off! Woo!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

They would still be the same

Fair warning, this is not kink related and could be taken as a mild rant. Monster hears this speech...a lot. But when you believe something to your very core, you can get quite het up about it.

30 Days of Submission: Day Two

    Describe who you might submit to and how. Are you exclusively submissive in marriage or just in the bedroom? Are you submissive only in the context of a scene or in a role or throughout your daily life? Are you submissive to play partners or only in the context of a relationship?

Saturday, April 21, 2012

The Purple Crayon

This is a short little erotic story that I wrote a while back. But, before you read it, please keep in mind that it is about a Daddy Dom and his little girl. Both characters are adults and consenting. And not actual Daddy and daughter, yes, it's an ageplay story. :p

30 Days of Submission: Day One

A very good friend of mine is doing a journal prompt on her blog. You can find her at The Dish With Ward and June. Monster read through the questions and thought it would be a good little exercise for me to do. So here goes my thievery of a journal prompt.

    Does your submission – either what you practice or what you strive for – have a label? Do you view your submission as Taken in Hand, domestic discipline, top/bottom, dominant/submissive, master/slave, owner/pet, or some other description or combination? If you do not use a label, why?

Quiet Self Reflection Time #1

I have had time to myself to think, something the Monster Man likes to call quiet self reflection time, and I realized a few things. Some of them are just silly little things and others are bigger.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Sweet Tooth

Monster is a schmexy beast. This afternoon he was mowing and I watched him. Like the suburban mom checkin' out the gardener. I sat in the shade on my tigger and pooh blankie. My storybook/journal in front of me and I was mesmerized. Intoxicated by the sight. He had his shirt off and was working up a pretty good sweat. His muscles flexed with each push and turn of that mower. I saw those flexers and oh sweet pickles. I thought of those arms flexing around me. The way his muscles ripple in his back when he thrusts. Drool. Swoon. Oh, mylanta I need a cold shower. In the background, Marilyn Manson sings out, "I will break you inside out. You are mine, you are mine." I giggled to myself and thought, "why yes, yes. You are mine."

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

It Isn't Ageplay

I know there's lots and lots of people out there who associate being a "little" with ageplay. For my Monster and I, ageplay doesn't even come close to describing our relationship. Just for a second I am going to describe what the term ageplay (age play, age-play) means to me. And please remember this is my opinion, yours may be different.

Love's Healing & Losing My Littles

Well, I haven't totally lost *all* my little sides. The main one, the 16 ish side, she is still there. Still a big mouth. And still taking the reins 90% of the time. But the littler ones, they just aren't there. The odd thing is...I'm not sad or scared or any other negative thought/feeling. I know if I lost my biggest little side, I would probably flip. Since it is the one in command most of the time. She is one that even my family knows about and accept. They don't know the full extent of her, but they don't bat an eye when it shows. So I feel...nothing, about the others. Maybe they will show up, maybe they won't, but I am not stressing myself over the loss.

Monday, April 2, 2012

Even When I'm Crazy

Warning: This isn't a pretty post. There's some touchy stuff involved and might be trigger-ish for some. I have an entry that I want to add on here and it refrences to situations like this. I am really reluctant to post this, but it helps prove my point in an upcoming post. So read at your own risk.

10 Day Journaling Exercise: Day Ten

Last one! And it's the steamiest. Haha, not really, but hope ya enjoy.

Day Ten: One Confession

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Sadistic Daddy?

As contradictory as this may sound, it is possible to be both. I know it is something that can be debated to death. There are those that would say that if a Daddy is a Sadist, then he isn't really a Daddy at all. And for those that say that, it is true...for them, but not for me. That's the glory of this crazy world of BDSM and kink in general. You aren't in a cookie cutter relatinship, each one is different and unique. Like building your own sub, (haha) you get to pick and choose what flavors you want. It really is a "to each their own" way to live.


"Why me?" the girl asks the man beside her. "What is it about me that makes you love me? I'm nothing important." Some may think she is fishing for a compliment, but in reality, she doesn't understand why he chose her.

"It's because of who you are," he smiles and replies. It's that simple. It's because of who she is, not who he thinks she should be.

10 Day Journaling Exercise: Day Nine

Yay, another semi-difficult one. Here we go...

Day Nine: Two Images That Describe Your Life Right Now

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